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The Straw that Broke this Mamma’s Back

It was a $5 bag of miniature magnifying glasses. That’s the straw that broke my back, a $5 bag of miniature magnifying glasses.

This time last year our TV was on the verge of going out. The TV screen was covered in so many white dots that it looked liked like we were watching it through a blizzard. The part to fix it would be just shy of what a new TV would cost. So we waited for black Friday and holiday sales to roll around. We waited. Then we searched and searched and searched until we knew we had found the best deal for what we wanted.

Last week I got a text from my husband that our 4 year old son put a yo yo through the TV. Our son put a yo yo through the TV we shopped for about as long as we owned it. My son told my husband right away, apologized, and has even tried to pay to have it fixed in chocolate coins.

We have our health I said. We have each other I said. It’s just a TV I said.

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A month or two ago I was driving to work and noticed the beautiful glimmer that is usually on the steering wheel from my  wedding ring was replaced with a dull empty space. The diamond in the setting was not there. After retracing my steps and looking everywhere I pulled out the papers from when it was purchased to realize it wasn’t insured based on a technicality. I hadn’t taken it back to the jewelers every 6 months to get is cleaned.

We haven’t gotten it replaced because so many people told me so many stories about finding lost gems from their jewelry in the most random places later. Also it’s going to, you know, be the cost of a diamond.

We have our health I said. We have each other I said. It’s just a ring I said.

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This was the first year my son was old enough to comprehend and understand about his birthday. It was really fun leading up to it because he had been looking forward to it so much. A month before his party I had ordered a $5 bag of miniature magnifying glasses to use as an activity and for party favors. That bag was not where I had left it on the top shelf of the pantry where the kids can’t reach behind a door with a child proof handle. I searched the house high and low for these stupid magnifying glasses. They weren’t anywhere to be found.  What followed may have also been influenced from battling a 5 day long migraine/sinus headache combo, not sleeping well, reading too much news about people shooting each other for no reason, and attempting to not be baited into ignorant political conversations on social media.

This mommy lost it. Incoherent sentence fragments and expletives streamed out all high pitched and shrill. My husband and the kids went to the back yard to “play” so “mommy could have a moment.” I know my husband thought I was crazy or taking it out on him. But really I think I just snapped at the idea of having to replace something else that we had barely used. And you know what? I also needed a break from being positive for everyone else. This sucked. The money to replace the TV will come from something else we want or need. I don’t wear jewelry except for my ring. I feel naked without it.  Also, I knew nobody at the party would even know or care if those stupid magnifying glasses weren’t there. It was one more thing that I had put effort into that was needlessly lost without being used though.

We are blessed with our health, each other and our needs are met. These are all items that we don’t need to live or even be happy. But they are things that we spent time and energy and hard earned money on. I needed to be upset for a moment instead of being the one to be positive for everyone else. Yes even it was just over a $5 bag of miniature magnifying glasses.

So I ordered another bag of magnifying glasses, and then found the missing ones a few days after the party. I have no clue how they ended up inside a random piece of tupperware in the cabinet. No clue.

Tell me, have you ever had a “straw that broke your back” moment

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23 thoughts on “The Straw that Broke this Mamma’s Back

  1. Yes! And it is always the silliest thing that does it. My son shot darts into our brand new t.v. and put the dog in the toilet and then stuck maxi pads to the back sliding doors during a party. That was the last straw that week! lol But on we go! Hope you find your diamond too!

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  2. God, God, God – thank you for sharing this! It is so human of us to “lose it” and I really needed that reminder today. Having some challenging communications in my relationships & judging that a lot. Close enough to a straw 🙂
    So many blessings your way….. I see bountiful blessings with grace

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    1. Thanks Debbie. I think sometimes we try so hard to be positive that we forget it’s ok to feel free frustrated when it’s warranted. Good luck. I’ll be thinking about your communication challenge and hoping it gets resolved!

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  3. Gosh! You held back for as long as you could and the TV and your ring are big stuff there! Yet you held yourself together and remained zen. Still, it’s a pressure cooker situation and the smallest thing can set you off. Oh yes, I’ve got my moments of that straw..just that I can’t remember any at this point in time! (Just as well! ;p)

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  4. I saved and saved, to buy a larger TV for my living room. I finally found one, that I could buy with the money I had saved, and had it delivered. I was so proud that I hadn’t used a credit card to pay for it. The VERY NEXT DAY my laptop died. I couldn’t even turn it on. The warranty had expired. FedEx picked it up and sent it to Texas to be repaired. It cost me more than the TV to get this thing fixed and I HAD to use a CREDIT CARD to pay for it. Aaaaaagh!

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  5. Thank you for your honesty! I don’t know how many times I’ve about lost my mind over missing pacifiers. I swear those things go missing like socks in the dryer. It’s crazy how something that costs $5 can put us over the edge.

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  6. Oh damn. I could feel your frustration through your words, so I can only imagine how those moments must have felt. As far as breakdowns are concerned you are not alone! We all have those small/big moments that eventually lead to us “losing it”. Just know it’s normal and human to do so. Hope you are feeling better 🙂

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