I have got just over a week and a half of maternity leave left. I am not ready to go back to work. It is not because of my job. They are great and beyond supportive.
It is just that by now I thought we would be in a routine of longer sleep intervals and doing things during the day to enjoy this fall weather. But we are still sleeping about two hours at a time. I am still napping a lot during the day and not getting much else finished. I am worried about how I will be able to function at work, especially without coffee!
I wanted to be rested so I could spend more time with the bigger kids. Instead I find myself saying to them nonstop ‘I’m tired’.
I thought since this was the third time around and having support at home that that would make this leave easier somehow. I guess the sleep cycles of newborn stage is just hard, and my expectations were too high.
More than anything though how am I going to be away from this face all day? I’m not ready.